newness comes with pains

Hurt, Tears, Longs, Missings

I have felt it all in the past few weeks.

Its crazy to think I have been home almost a month. I remeber when I left the NW I was on some kinda of decision making, i had hopes, dreams, cray ideas.

Well the high is going, and in its place has come studing for a test, going to classes (which I love) and working VBS (i knda of like it).

So the pains are still here and in the midst of them I can not shake the felling of have nothing.

I have friends, I have family, but God has not been prestent in my live lately.

Knowing that the decion was made and that it was made right does not mean it was easy, or that in some fashion the same things that pladged me in Wa are not here in Dallas.

I miss the old becasue the new comes with pain.

I'll let ya know when I am over the pain. (praying for soonness)